brrr.. so bored!!! i have been feeling sleepy all day ever since i came back from china. my eyes cant even open fully! and even shopping can't excite me. whats wrong?!? did i get possessed by some spirit of something?!? why so lethargic de ah?!? where comes the many zzz monster! Anws, my last week is just bad. why so? my dear uncle passed away because of leukemia. This illness killed him in 1.5~2mth. scary shit!!! and so i went back home for his funeral. alright i ll skip the funeral part because it's just so freaking sad and depressing and cold and dark and heart sinking breathing heaving. ok STOP remembering those 2 days. I'm surprised that my cousin and i got closer! because i was beside him throughout the whole thing and every time when we met in my grandmother's house we stick together. I am pretty worried for him because he lost his dad and his heartless mum who dumped him when his 11 remarried and moved elsewhere already! poor cousin :'( he said he will be alone for the rest of his life. and as a supportive and loving sis, i said NO! I'M ALWAYS HERE! i hope he does believe wholeheartedly because his past traumas :( ok right now i really hope that he can come spore to take a walk. he wants too but applying visa will take too long! he has to go back to college soon. Anws, pray that everything will be fine and well back home.