Adults make a lot of mistakes. Stupid mistakes. They thought they have the situations in their hands, but no, they are so full of themselves they become too blinded to see what is real and truly matters. They thought they can fight against fate and time. They thought with their judgements they can make the right choice at the right time. But it's all just in their heads. And children, ignorant about the world, take adults and their stupid choices as leading modal. When the kids couldn't make sense of the events, they use their ignorance to interpret the adult world. And most often, they shift the blames of their "always right" leaders to themselves. Only to realise decades later when they become adults that this figuee is just human. When the enlightenment came, they break free from the chains. Sadly, some never manage to be enlightened.
Adults, foolish, blind and self righteous adults.

Emotions are complex. I never know how is it possible but it really is real. I must have looked weird. But I just cnt hold myself together at that critical moment.

适可而止。enough is enough. I know ur parents let you do what you like to do. BUT. You are not 18 19. U are freaking 24. Not talking abt ambitions guys, but uni grad who are decently worry abt their future 已经在为未来打拼了. 该是认真了。如果人生是不同的，如果以前有人告诉你适可而止，你的梦会是更高的

患难见真情。。说的是真的

跟他说这些有什么意思呢。一个可以同甘但不能共苦的人。一个再一次需要我开口要求关心的人。这又说明了什么呢。听到的不如看到的。what you see is what you get... 够了

Haiyo.. write bday card for mum until I cry. Ha! I've written many cards for people but I rarely write one for my mum. Yet, she is the one on earth who loves and cares for me the most. She gave me all she had, her time her youth her energy her own interests, for me and she is always ready to give me more with no return. She should be treated like a saint isn't it? A card I wrote is barely much effort compared to what my mum gave me. But I know with just a card she will be happy and satisfied. I should stop now. Gna tear again...

Dear God,

I have been missing out in Your life for a very long time and right now I have a strong feeling that I need You back as my salvation. The days without You are dry, and I am a person hopeless and dry as a desert. There is still a fear in me which holds me back. That is a fear of men, Your own dear creations. I feel that a seed has planted in me for the fear of trusting human, even those who work for you. I duno how will I feel or what will I do when I again step into church. I think I won't either burst into tears or be as cold as ice. God, I pray in the name of Jesus Christ that you will help me remove this hurdle, and plant a new seed in me. I admit that I'm weak and incapable, not because other church leaders said about humans, but what I have experienced during the days of stray. I still remembered myself praying to you, challenge you that if I pass all my grades, I 'll go back to church. U did win the challenge. Despite my attempt to fail one of the module, u let me pass by one mark. God, now I'm not coming to challenge, but to come forth to you as a humble person asking for forgiveness and grace. After all these ventures I set out in lifes to see the sides without you, I realised they aren't as glamorous as they seem. Dear God, maybe is You who set him back into my life, or maybe not. Whatever the case, I pray that you 'll be the centre of us holding us together.

So much changes came and so much more are yet to come. Nevertheless, I hope my 2013 is as refreshing, awesome and miraculous as 2012. the worst things I hope is life settling once again into mundanes, boredom and restrictions. I will never let that happen. 2013 is going to be a year to remember. Be who I am, be authentic, be positive and most importantly be not afraid.

Don't like the idea of totally entrusting with one guy cos u never know when this person will walk out on u.. they say marriage is sacred. But monogamy is not scientific. Human trust is not trustworthy. How can someone even love wholely. It's as if walking on wire