一肚子的气,这么多年还没消。可见当时对我的打击有多深。以前的事如果现在发生,我还是会用一样的态度面对。我就是我。我的底线很明确。黑与白,二选一,不惜一切决不妥协灰色地带。

I have being sick for over a week. I just hope I can recover soon. My throat is not healing and my left ear is partially blocked. I duno why. But my head on my left side is having pain too. My cough is getting worse. My eyes are full of thick yellowish mucus. I want to recover soon :( I still have many revisions undone

I think I think I think..

Your strength won't make you the best. Only when you know how to manage your strengths makes u the best.
Sadly, I didn't know how to manage back then. And sadly, my strengths worked against me and hurt me.

My everything. Who let me see who I am.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iiqeEM7JPRo&feature=youtube_gdata_player

I feel like I can't stop. There's too much memories shared. There's too much meanings and one can't just let go like that. There's way too many contents that filled up us. I can't stop.

Can I quit. Can I run. Can I hide to a place where nobody know me. Can I start afresh. Can I begin with a clean sheet of paper. Can I just delete everything. Can I just forget. Can I not talk about it. Can I do pretends. It's hard. It's fear. It's darkness. It's unforeseen. Can I just run. Can I don't turn my head. Can i.

Dun understand waking up feeling so 委屈for what. Swollen eyes swollen face. It's cny. Let's eat n play!

没有人敲过的门。没有人望进的窗。没有人听过的故事。没有人经过的路。我们最终都是一个人。习惯了。
笑一笑, 明天开始了。
笑给别人看,哭给自己听

Showing the aint pretty and imperfect side of me.. who will ever be there to make me pretty and perfect again...

I'm sorry that I never love and treasure myself as much as I should. I'm sorry that it hurts the people who love me. I'm sorry I did not realise I am worthy of more love and cherish than I ever thought of. And I'm not the distorted person I used to see myself. Maybe things will be better or they will not. But this time I shall not run and I shall not shield. Come at me. I'm learning to be brave. But this struggle is just between me and me.

I dun owe anyone any explanation except God and myself. I dun have to say anything to anybody and I dun have the obligations to describe and explain every single details. It's just between me and God. What doesnt concern you, is not your business. It's up to my freedom and decision to when and what to tell. I feel violated to have to endure your questionings when all those have nothing at all to do with you. And I have to face the humiliation that comes with it. Truth is I always have a place where nobody is invited in. It's my privacy. And i have my own stories and thoughts which i dont share because they are really just between me and God. And now why do you have to barge in. Offensive and intrusive. The only thing I feel sorry about is lying to you. I have to. Because your question came way too early than I am ready to open up.