不知道了。不想想了。maybe swallowing some grief but not leaving any regrets..where the future brings me, I go.. and where the conclusion sets I ll follow.. tomorrow is s mystery and today is a gift (:

When I was young (12?) and was first having period, I thought my tummy is filled with blood but the drainage of blood is immersely slow so I'm carrying a pot of blood around me for 5 days. And when i read about period is actually about 6 tea spoon, I imagine myself has a robot like opening on my stomach and i can take a spoon to scope out 6 tea spoons of blood and within 1min, my period is over.
In reality it is not.
Until now, I hate period. It's painful, it's tortuous and it makes me feel like a depressed mad woman. I once hoped that there will be some medical break through which allow me to store my uterus in the hospital and I can fix it back when I'm ready to be pregnant. How nice would be that......